I am always impressed by the words Tony wrote to me when we graduated from middle high school many years ago. He said: Hope you can gain the wholeness of the life which is consist of decent personality, successful career and happy family. I got the sequence of those three clearly years later since in my opinion, it gets harder than the one before. Either successful career or happy family depends on more than the perseverance of your own, especially the latter one.

 

Till today, I believe we are still struggling for our ideal life as perfectionists although the reality beat us again and again. But I am getting better and better because of you, my friends. You know, I am not that strong, strong enough to travel alone.  Everyone of you, taught me, enlighten me, inspired me and kept me in hope. Accompanying with you, the difficulties made them easier for me.

 

I do appreciate the passion of love and that actually is one of most amazing things in the world. When you meet some one and fall in love. You think he/she is the gift of God. And I am totally agree with giving up the dead love at appropriate time decisively, of course,  based on your previous effort, to protect your lover and family with all your heart from any kinds of hurts. But, I saw the opposite world. You are the man I really respected with. You once were my idol. You successfully let me know the exsitence of loyalty in the marriage. You made me believe there is some one in the world would responisble for himself and family. And finally I can get mine with my endeavor. However, I cannot image, one day, my belief broken down also because of you.

 

I confess I am simply a weak ideal girl, who keep looking for the real life I want, including true love. Every time I see my friends get their happiness, I feel it happens to me too. That is why I can get as much as double happiness, also, disppointment as well. Friend’s encouagement made me feel better but, could I, not to be disappointed?